De Four Leaf Clover

I wonder whether I’ve been graduated from UIB or not since I haven’t attended the graduation ceremony… But as I know, my status in UIB is graduated…
Because I’ve got my temporary transcript already… why I said the transcript is temporary? because the paper of this transcript is **** and it is in indonesian language…!!! I heard that after the graduation ceremony we can get the english version one.. I hope the quality of the paper that printed our GPA, will far more better than this temporary one….

Actually I’m quite dissappointing after seeing my transcript… only my gal will know why I’m dissappointing… but overall my GPA is quite acceptable… My only worried is whether we who are graduated from UIB will be acknowledge by others institutions or company or overseas company?? I know UIB has been accreditated but I’m still worrying about it… I think most of UIB’s alumni will understand why I am saying this… :p

Although I’m worrying about it, but I’m still very happy that I’ve graduated… at least I got my degree already… although the majoring of this degree is not what I wanted. It is far from what I intended to pursue when I was in senior high school… What can I archieve by saying such things again? I’ve got my degree and these are all I got now…

Hm…. Let me see…. How many years I’ve been wasted in UIB?? lol…. I’ve studied about 3 years and 6 months in UIB in order to get a degree… I still can remember my lecturer when I was in 1st semester… the most unforgetable one is Dermawan.. he was [introduction to information technology]’s lecturer… he likes to ignore his student.. he is soo relax when he’s teaching us (maybe he is lazy?!?) but I admit he is such a genius… maybe!? although his teaching attitude is rather lazy… but after he’s gone.. I miss his teaching technique.. (to the point…) and then we got Mr. Budi, Mr. Jowly (the most stingy lecturer in giving point), Ms. … (I 4got her name, she is the secretary of head of IS & our algorithm’s lecturer)…. that’s it.. my memories for my 1st semester in UIB. Then for 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th semester, I don’t have much memories stored in my harddisk… except I’ve known a bunch of friends and classmates… for the last 2 semester memories in UIB are still fresh in my harddisk… 6th semester is the hardest semester I’ve ever had in UIB… in this semester I need to finished my proposal of my thesis and my project (make a system). I was soo busy in this semester… almost every night I need to stay up till 2 or 3 am to do my project… and then the last semester… I think it can be considered my fav semester? because all the subject I picked in this semester was the favorite subject… so I passed it well on this semester… except thesis…

During the period I was in UIB, it had lot of changes. Started from the building of UIB, status of UIB, lecturer, to the head of IS….. As far as I remembered… Just for the head of IS had been changed for 4 times already… the first one is Mr. Budi Chang… then Mr. Timotius.. then Mr. Sughie (the most younger one).. and then Mr. Ronny (the current one)…. Don’t know they’ll changed the head of IS for the future or not…. You see?? just for the head of IS, we had 4 different person already… how about the lecturer?? we’ve a lot of lecturer… (how many lecturer can you imagine?)
THen for the status of UIB… UIB has been accreditated… this is the best gift from our head of IS (Mr. Sugiarto) + those lecturer…. They were working very hard to archieve this accreditation… once again thanks for all your hardworks!
THen for the building.. finally UIB has its own building… and far more bigger than the 1st building at batam center…. lol

hm….. What else?? I think it’s enough for now.. I’ll continue it when I remember something about UIB again…. ^_^

Today, its my first day of work after a long holiday during CNY….

But i don’t feel like working!! not even a little ….. Although my body is here.. in front of the computer but maybe my soul is still left at home… still sleeping perhaps…. lol

Finally i’ve finished my thesis… i’ve handed it to BAAK… but i haven’t apply for the ’sidang’ hahhaha… its very tiring and depressing before i handed that thesis… When i was doing my KP (Project) i thought that Thesis would be more simple than KP… but while i’m doing the thesis i realized that i was wrong!! Thesis is far more difficult thatn KP!! we need extra time to find + read + understand + memorize those supporting journal…. we need to know + understand + doing + explain all those statisctics that include in the thesis…. all the test that we conducted to make the summary for out thesis!! not even counted those hypotesis!!! sigh…

But finally i’ve done it!! i’ve handed it to BAAK… lol…. i feel so relieved that i can submit the thesis around the deadline !!! All of this effort is worth it!! And I must thank you to lot of ppl…. who have helped me when i was so confused bout my thesis and those who are always support me like my family, my brother.. my friends… and all for all i need to thanks GOD who is always watching me and giving me this intelligent to finished the thesis!!!

Although my thesis had not been sidang yet.. that’d be mean i haven’t graduate too… but i please enough finished and have it handed right after the deadline passed!!! lol….

Thanks all!!!!!!

BTW… Talk about CNY… is ur CNY holiday nice??? Mine has been so far so good… I spent lot of my holiday time for sleeping at my most comfortable bed… and watching my lovely TV drama… and read my favourable harry potter’s novel…. lol… But the 2nd and 3rd day of CNY is my busiest day…. coz half of my cousin from singapore is come back to BATAM…. and i need to accompany them to here and there… treat them to here and there…. whoa!! its really tiring….. but i enjoyed it very much… ^_^

^_^

Come to think of it… another year has been passed…. sigh, but I still the old me… I need to change!!! but how??  When I was alone, I like to think… why does my life is so boring?? seems like it is lack of something…. and I realise what is that!! but what can I do?? to get that thing??? its not a thing that u can find it whenever u like and throw it whenever u dont like!!! hahaha.. so what’s that thing??? I choose to be silent about that thing…. lol….

Well.. new year… new hopes… new lifes… new me perhaps??? :p
I hope to see the completely new me at 2007!!! can i do it? of course I can!!!
(what bulls***t had I said?!?)

C’mon…. cheer up!! its new year already!! Find that something that important to myself!!!

what am i saying in this blog?? arh… I don’t know…. just felt like wanna wrote sometin on it…. hahaha…..

Happy New year 2007 then!! ^_^

Thank You, Lord
For the trial that come my way,
In that way I can growth each day,
As I let you lead;
And Thank You Lords.
For the patieance those trials bring,
In that process of growing,
I can learn to care.

Chorus:
But it goes against the way I am,
To put my humant nature down
And let the Spirit take control of all I do;
‘Cause when those trials come,
My human nature shouts the thing to do,
And God’s soft prompting can be easily ignored.

But I thank You Lord,
With eash trial I fell inside,
That You’re there to thelp, lead and guide
My way from wrong;
‘Cause You’ve promise Lord,
That with every testing
That Your way of escaping
Is easier to bear.

Taken From :
Youth Club Choir @ GAPPI Batam Center

Today is 20 September;

I came
back from my 3 days 2 night holiday at Genting last night.

Thanks GOD for giving me
this chance to go for a holiday with my friends and always take care of me when
I was in Genting. I’d like to share some of my experience in this blog.

16 September night, we
departed from Singapore to Malaysia. We go there by bus, so that we must sleep in the
bus. But we didn’t have much sleep inside the bus because it is not comfortable
to sleep inside the bus. The view when the bus was ascending to the Genting
Highlands is amazing!!! There are a lot of lamps that looks like small stars. It’s
pity that I can’t take a picture of that view.

17 September dawn, Thank GOD we arrived safely
at Genting. As we wait for the check-in to the room, we go for a walk around
the plaza and the garden. After we checked-in to the hotel, we go to enjoy our
holiday by playing some indoor activities like snow land & haunted mansion. The weather there is just damn cold…..

18 September, we go to
playing all the outdoor activities from day to night like bumper boat, flying bla bla.. (4got the name), sungai redang, horse, etc….. It’s really pity that I didn’t
feel well that day …. So I miss some of them.  But its just great when u watched down from hotel building… all the clouds is just below ur legs…. as if  you were standing above all the clouds…

19 September, its time for
us to end our 3 day 2 night holiday. We arrived at Singapore safely of course because there is GOD who is took
care of me along the way back to Singapore.

There
are funs and sad things happened during this holiday. I enjoy every moments
when I spare it with my friends, they are Hetty & Lina. I’d like to thanks
to Hetty, coz it’s her who bought the hot drinks for me when I was feeling not
well and Lina who brought the hot drinks for me. Accidentally I broke my bro’s
digital camera and his hand phone. I’m really sorry about that. All the things has
happened so what can be done anymore? I didn’t tell my bro that I broke his
hand phone, I even lied to my bro that I want to change my hand phone for a
period of time so I gave him my hand phone. I’m such a bad girl right?? I don’t
want to be scold by my brother so that I lied to him. Sigh….. I wonder why I become
such a bad girl….. I’m such a sinner… L Finally I got the punishment from GOD. I lost my wallet
at Singapore, harbour front when I was calling to my mom, I didn’t realize that
I lost my wallet until I come back to my home. Still I’d like to thank GOD for
this punishment. Because due to this punishment, make me realize what have been
done by me all these times…. I deserve this kind of punishment…. Thank GOD because the punishment is come to
me after I come back from Genting. I wonder what it will be if I lost my wallet
before I come back from Genting….. Thanks GOD for still took care of me and letting
me come back safely…. I learn a lot from this holiday. This trip makes me realize
all my mistakes, all my sins… I’ll take this trip as unforgettable experiences.

^_^

Ragu, ragu
Itulah tanda dalam matamu,
Menandakan pelarian yang panjang selama ini

Dari manakah engkau? Hendak kemanakah?
Teman, teman hentikan;ah tapak kaki yang mengembara
Dari manakah engkau? Hendak kemanakah?
Teman, teman hentikanlah tapak kai yang mengembara

Jangan berkata tidak ada kebenaran dalam dunia,
Jangan berkata tidak ada tujuan dalam hidup,
Jikalau tidak, tidak perlulah engkau cari
Jikalau tidak, tidak perlulah engkau melarikan diri.

Allah mengasihi dunia, Allah mengasihi dunia
Dia telah memberikan Tuhan Yesus kepada mereka
Oh, Tuhan mengasihimu! Die benar mengasihimu!
Ah! Segala yang percaya tidak perlu binasa.
Allah mengasihi dunia!

(lagu dari Pertanyaan & jawaban tentang kekekalan)

Ada seorang pemuda yang lama sekolah di negeri paman Sam kembali ke tanah air. Sesampainya dirumah ia meminta kepada orang tuanya untuk mencari seorang Guru agama, pendeta atau siapapun yang bisa menjawab 3 pertanyaannya. Akhirnya Orang tua pemuda itu mendapatkan orang tersebut. pemuda: Anda siapa? Dan apakah bisa menjawab pertanyaan-pertanyaan saya?
Pendeta : Saya hamba Allah dan dengan izin-Nya saya akan menjawab pertanyaan anda
Pemuda : Anda yakin? Sedang Profesor dan banyak orang pintar saja tidak mampu menjawab pertanyaan saya.
Pendeta : Saya akan mencoba sejauh kemampuan saya
Pemuda : Saya punya 3 buah pertanyaan 1. Kalau memang Tuhan itu ada, tunjukan wujud Tuhan kepada saya 2. Apakah yang dinamakan Takdir 3. Kalau setan diciptakan dari api kenapa dimasukan ke neraka yang dibuat dari api, tentu tidak menyakitkan buat setan sebab mereka memiliki unsur yang sama. Apakah Tuhan tidak pernah berfikir sejauh itu?
Tiba-tiba Pendeta tersebut menampar pipi si Pemuda dengan keras.
Pemuda (sambil menahan sakit): Kenapa anda marah kepada saya?
Pendeta : Saya tidak marah…Tamparan itu adalah jawaban saya atas 3 buah pertanyaan yang anda
ajukan kepada saya.
Pemuda : Saya sungguh-sungguh tidak mengerti
Pendeta : Bagaimana rasanya tamparan saya?
Pemuda : Tentu saja saya merasakan sakit
Pendeta : Jadi anda percaya bahwa sakit itu ada?
Pemuda : Ya
Pendeta : Tunjukan pada saya wujud sakit itu !
Pemuda : Saya tidak bisa
Pendeta : Itulah jawaban pertanyaan pertama, kita semua merasakan keberadaan Tuhan tanpa  mampu melihat wujudnya.
Pendeta : Apakah tadi malam anda bermimpi akan ditampar oleh saya?
Pemuda : Tidak
Pendeta : Apakah pernah terpikir oleh anda akan menerima sebuah tamparan dari saya hari ini?
Pemuda : Tidak
Pendeta : Itulah yang dinamakan Takdir
Pendeta : Terbuat dari apa tangan yang sayagunakan untuk menampar anda ?
Pemuda : kulit
Pendeta : Terbuat dari apa pipi anda?
Pemuda : kulit
Pendeta : Bagaimana rasanya tamparan saya?
Pemuda : sakit..
Pendeta : Walaupun Setan terbuat dari api dan Neraka terbuat dari api, jika Tuhan berkehendak maka Neraka akan Menjadi tempat menyakitkan untuk setan. Sekarang Anda mempunyai dua pilihan:
1. Biarkan Post Bulletin ini tetap dalam mailbox anda.
2. Forward Post Bulletin ini ke sejumlah orang yang anda kenal dan Tuhan memberkati

Today is 24 October 2005, monday, the 1st news that i received from my mom when i wake up this morning is …… Ryu has gone away…. he has gone forever….. i’ll never be able to see him again…. this news is the worst that i’ve ever received from my mom….. my tears roll down from my eyes… i cannot stop it… i cannot stop thinking about my Ryu…. :’( hiks hiks hiks….

Although he only is a pet of mine (Ryu is my dog)… but i really took him as my fren…. i’ll talk to him… whenever i’m in a very bad mood… sometimes i’ll fed him… sometimes i’ll play with him…. he’ll bark everytime i got back home… untill last week… he stop his barked … he was sick very sick…
but on saturday afternoon, when i got back home from office… i heard his barked again… i thought he has recovered… i’m really happy on that day… then i fed him (he finished all the thing i give to him) … i talk to him again… who knows tat was the last time i talk to him….
last nite… i fed him again… he just sat there.. and watch me… he did not eat the food that i give it to him…. this was the last time i fed him…. the last time i saw him sat at there and wave his tail for me…. :’( farewell Ryu….. farewell…. :’(

thanks for everything u’ve done for my family…..
thanks lots…. lots… :’( hiks hiks hiks hiks….
i’ll remember you 4ever .. 4ever…. 4ever…… 4ever…..

What is the meaning of life??? does anybody know it?? Life must be colorful… doesn’t it?? but there are many people life is really bored….  What can we do to make our life more colorful??
friends?
family?
degree?
social status?
money?
religion?
or …..
love????
I’ve got my answer already….
how bout yours??
have you think about it yet???

Do you think someone can live with forcing herself or himself to do something he/she doesn’t like?? or forcing her/himself to work e job that he/she hated it?? even force him/herself to face someone he/she doesn’t like??
what would you suggest this person to do?? Do you think this person’s life is colorful or not??

Life is so important.. we only live once in our Life…
so we must fill our Life with Happiness…….
and keep smiling… wherever we are…… whatever we face………